The world is high tech and people dont write letters anymore

jacqui: hey
me: hey
jacqui: i wrote a letter to you today but i lost it
me: noooo
me: ill write you a letter =
me: i miss you
jacqui: it was just saying how much i miss you
me: <3
jacqui: and how much that i think about our history and how funny and terrible and great it was
jaqui: and that you are amazing
me: i miss you so bad
me: and yeah
me: it really is funny and terrible and great
me: i was trying to explain to [friend]
me: and it wasnt cause it sucked or was fabulous or extreme or anything
me: its just taht its over and that sucks
jacqui: yeah
jacqui: and i hate our timing
me: x2938472
me: my life
me: would be sooo different
me: if you were here
jacqui: my life would be so different if i was there
me: better or worse or just different
jacqui: i don’t know
jacqui: in case witih you??
jacqui: better
me: ty
jacqui: in general i don’t know
me: yeah
jacqui: i hate the what could ofs
me: oh god
me: my life is one big fucking could of
jacqui: cause i am not gunna lie we had a pretty hot what could have
me: yeah
jacqui: but ur friend jacqui is a scared of those things called relationships
me: its ok
me: i think i am too now
me: i broke up with [boy] after one week
me: cause i just dont want a boyfrien
me: i really just dont
me: i want to make out
me: i want to hold hands
me: i just dont want a “relationship”
me: you know?
jacqui: haha yeah
me: i have to go to bed
me: but i miss you x842730498230498230498230492304983
me: like you have no idea
jacqui: good night love
me: goodnight
jacqui: and omg i cried last night missing you (creepy? yess)
me: fuck you im crying right now
jacqui: i love you good night
jacqui: sleep welll
me: you too

You’ve left.

You’ve left. You’ve left to be with him and there isn’t anything I can do about it. There used to be a time when I would chase you. A time when I thought life was less of something if you weren’t by my side. You said we’ll talk on Monday. I agreed, but what you don’t know is that I won’t answer. By that time I will have canceled this email address as well. You always said that clean cuts were for the best.

You had me, but I wasn’t good enough. Wasn’t strong enough or bad enough to last more than a year with you. I hope he can retain your attention. All I want to do is forget you.

C